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released January 9, 2020

Music and Lyrics by Matthew Ryan Smith
Produced, Mixed, and Mastered by Doug Gallo @ AGL Sounds
Recorded in New Brunswick, NJ

Thomas D Vinko - Drums
Upright Bass - Kazim Zaidi
Pedal Steel - Tim Kelly
Harmonies - J O Smith
Harmonies - Lacey Ellis
Electric Guitar - Doug Gallo

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Track Name: Secret Track (revised)
Yesterday I called an old friend
Asking do you remember when
It’s crazy how a decades come and gone
Man, that’s the strangest feeling

Staring at another canvas
You know I’ve had a lot of chances
This could be my final dance
I’ll do my best
And speak my inner truth
my inner truth

I don’t want to keep on suffering
Guided by the inner demand
Yearning for the validation
Fearing that I am somehow less than

Summers coming to an ending
The chorus of the forest singing
The fire in my chest is burning
Leaves are turning
I am changing too
I’m changing too
Track Name: Waiting
I get infected with awful thoughts
When I'm not on the lookout
Disguised by my own mouth, they talk
And they say pretty awful things
Sometimes I argue
And tell them they're untrue
When they read me my fortune

It feels like i have done all that I can
I'm tired and i’ve failed at every plan
So I backup slow and throw up both my hands
I find myself alone inside my van
Waiting for the show to finally end
My whole life I’ve been chasing the same thing
But I’m not sure that it’s worth the waiting

This feeling won’t go away
I need a distraction
A thrill or a substance, a taste
Wrapped up in foreign limbs
I feel whole for a moment
It’s insane and i know it
An act for the desperate

It feels like i have done all that I can
I'm tired and i’ve failed at every plan
So I backup slow and throw up both my hands
I find myself alone, laying in bed
Staring at my phone, it’s almost dead
A contact list full of fair weather friends
But i’m not sure that they’d even understand

It feels like i have done all that I can
I'm tired and i’ve failed at every plan
So I backup slow and throw up both my hands
I find myself alone inside my head
Running through the thoughts I’ve always had
A list full of unanswered questions
So I’m not sure that it’s worth the waiting
Track Name: In Parenthesis
I can feel it now
Trying to float above it and not drown
Like a wave, I clench my fists, try to resist
It knocks me on the ground

In parenthesis
I can tell it’s always next to me
Can’t escape, is this my fate? is there a way
that i’ll ever be free?

I can feel it now
Like the April rain that’s coming down
I’m afraid it knows my name
Is it okay if i just go home now?

Cause in parenthesis
I can tell it’s always next to me
Can’t escape, is this my fate? is there a way
that i’ll ever be free?

When I’m in the thick of it
Feels like there’s no end to this
Looking back on the mounting evidence
(you know this, don’t you?)
There’s a way, I know there is
Change is slowing happening
Nothing ever happens by accident
(you know this, don’t you?)

I can feel it now
Trying to float above it and not drown
Like a wave, I clench my fists, try to resist
It knocks me on the ground

In parenthesis
I can tell it’s always next to me
Can’t escape, is this my fate? is there a way
that i’ll ever be free?
Track Name: Light n Sweet
This coffee’s pretty bitter. I ran out of milk and sugar,
overthinking things
Been losing it all year and the future’s so unclear
Where have you been?

Told myself it’d work out again and again and again and again
But those shoes they quickly wore out. They never seemed to fit to begin

The leaves are changing colors
All my friends are getting older
I don’t have control
If i could bottle up a moment
When the world wasn’t so broken
I could fix it all

But the truth that i ignored, when you said it again and again and again
Kept me holding onto something that’s dead, that is dead

I will always need your love

I feed the flowers water
Like breast milk from a mother
I will keep them strong
But soon it will be winter
All the pedals, they will wither
I will lose them all

I pray that every spring they come back to life again and again and again
And I hope I see the day that I will see your face my friend

I will always need your love

But we’ll never see each other
as friends, just former lovers
We can’t escape our history
And this feeling tastes so bitter
Can’t seem to make it better
You know i like it light and sweet

I will always need your love
Track Name: Youth
I’ve seen some graduations to close to funeral arrangements
There’s nothing that you could of said to them to make a difference
They got it bad, searching for something that was never missing
Sparking the match, they wouldn’t leave the house while it was burning down

I don’t know if I can do it like I used to do it
Trying to control it all with misery all threaded through it
I thought the cost of being happy was some years of suffering
But now I’m thinking things’ll happen how they’re supposed to happen

Oh, We’ve lost our place
But somewhere down the road
There may be an answer waiting
We can crack the code
It’s not a race
So we can take it slow
And someday we’ll remember those who didn’t make it through

Stuck in prisons made of my own fears and old resentments
They tried to clear it up with therapy and medications
Your brain is broken so we’ll pump it full of serotonin
And that’s all good but we need love outside an office visit

Oh, We’ve lost our place
But somewhere down the road
There may be an answer waiting
We can crack the code
It’s not a race
So we can take it slow
And someday we’ll remember those who didn’t make it through
Track Name: Room
Whos room was this before I moved in?
This house was built in
The 60s or something
Were they laying where I'm laying
Just thinking?

I hear the train, it hasn't passed yet
A new facet
Of the room I inhabit
Creaky floors and leaky faucets
little remnants
That stick in the ending
I’m still there

I had a dream that I got drunk and
Then I broke in
To the room I grew up in
On the bed a boy was laying
just staring
At the crack on the ceiling

Approached it slowly, like a coffin
The floor was creaking
But he was wasn't looking
It was me when I was 13
I started talking
But he couldn't hear me
I'm still there
I'm still there

With every change
We will retain what remained pure
But we don't haunt old homes
To it, we’re furniture
A coat of paint is all it takes
To clear the air
But I'm still there
I'm still there
I'm still there
Track Name: The Weight
I thought that time would take you away
But the image of you is burned in my brain
Went in with the wash
Came out as a stain
When will it fade?

Now I only mention you in past tense
Cause the love that I offered was at my expense
Wherever I wander
You're there in a sense
This feeling so dense

My love for you, it could fill this whole state
I've locked it up but it's breaking the gates
When I think of you I start feeling that weight
When will this fade?